And she wrote

i'm happy if you are

Yeah i'm going to try this out

www.scriptsit.tumblr.com 

Cuscaden on a tuesday is freaking packed.
Happy Be-lated Jin :)

Turns out kylie is so much more sociable than i am when it comes to strangers. respect right there.

I find that i can't trust myself much these days. As Hannah likes to say, "weak" --___--

i really shouldnt be updating this. i should be studying. 

Joel told me about this thing called "teabagging" yesterday. that's some sick shit right there people.

I really need to get out of Singapore. i am starting to feel rather claustrophobic. 

The past few days have been quite a whirlwind. 
i feel like i've lost and gained so many things i probably can't write all of them down but oddly enough... i feel content. 
i wouldn't change what happened this weekend. 

i screwed up broadcast today. idk why i always screw up when it really matters. fml.

today i realised that i have lost so much weight. My arms and legs freak me out. i am not even kidding. i bumped into Gordon on the bus today and he kept mentioning it and offering to buy me a donut. ha. i still don't have an appetite though. i don't know where it's gone -___- i assure everyone that i am not anorexic or bulimic so don't worry <3

Adele's voice is perfect. absolutely perfect.

it was an awesome night 

 i am SO addicted to that song by the black eyed peas! seriously. been on repeat the whole day.
OH and i decided to wear a long flowy skirt today and then i bumped into Thong...

Sam: HELLO!
Thong: Hahah Hey! EH! why do you look so girly today?!       ..i hope this is just a phase

hahahahahaha oh gosh. 


OH OH! AND I FEEL SO AWESOME RIGHT NOW CAUSE I CAN TIE A KNOT WITH MY TONGUE!!
haha honestly, that's all i did during theatre class today. just tied knots with that long stringy candy. i am so proud of myself right now i think i deserve a new desktop! daddy? :D

okay i just showed him and he started talking about a random orangutan --___--

nah today wasn't a good day.

it was a great day :D

freaking addicted to this song!

So i caught "sunshine cleaning" with kim yesterday! great movie. everyone should watch it! i really like both amy adams and emily blunt! i thought they acted really well! 
Kim picked me up from school! hahaha i found that rather exciting because it's KIM! i didn't even dare talk to her because she just looked so focused and nervous. we went to dhoby and we got this really cute harry potter popcorn combo! it's adorable! the popcorn thingy is a witch pot! SO COOL RIGHT. 

AND I AM SO SCARRED BECAUSE JOEL JUST SHOWED ME A VIDEO OF THE WORLD'S SMALLEST DICK COMPETITION. k i know it sounds mean but somehow i am not THAT scarred because i don't really feel like i was looking at naked men, i feel like i was looking at naked women. meh. haha. 


Random thought: i realized that i am physically incapable of crying. i have not cried for months! k some of you will be like "isn't that  a good thing?" NO IT ISNT! girls, esp me, need to just let it all out once in a while and a good cry lets me do exactly that. the MOST i am capable of now is getting misty eyed. 
like i'm watching a movie. it's a sad part. and my eyes get misty and i'm like YES! CRY SAM JUST CRY! and it's like i'm hitting a wall cause the tears REFUSE to come out. so i'm sitting there thinking to myself "come on sam! cry! just get those tears out! you can do it!!" like i am physically trying to push them out too. i'm just scared that the one day i do cry, i'm not going to stop for hours. meh.

IT'S A HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TWO IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE :)

My oldest brother, Jon, who will do anything to protect me, who keeps me company watching all the various tv series that we watch late at night, who makes me laugh till i cry and who has always, always cared for me. I know i can always count on you if i need anything. I love you so very much big brother :)

And to Aqilah! My roommate for like 2 years (it was two years right? my memory is failing so bad) who has been my voice of reason, the person i call when i am out of my mind, the first person to know when something major has happened, you're one of the people i trust most on this planet and I could NOT imagine my life without you hun. I'd kick anyone's ass for you, VERBALLY haha. i love you :)

this is how i used to laugh:
Sam: HAHAHHAHAHAHA

this is how i laugh now:
Sam: HAHAHAH- OH OH! OUCH! sonofa-

yeah. i think it's God finally punishing me for laughing at people. it has to be. 

Also, i'm freaked out that the mole on my face is going to grow like INSANELY HUGE. :( cause everyone has been telling me stories of moles that started out as small dots and turned out to be SICK, HUGE, HAIRY MONSTERS.

HAHAHAHHAHAHA OMG MY MUM IS HILARIOUS! The PSA with Adrian Pang and Eunice Olsen came on and they were saying that if we develop flu like symptoms we are to stay away from malls and go to the doctor and my mum was like:

Mum: " PEOPLE HAVE TO GO INTO THE BLOODY MALLS TO GET TO THE FREAKING DOCTORS YOU STUPID PEOPLE! I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY PUT THE DOCTOR PLACES IN MALLS! IT'S RIDICULOUS! THEY MAKE PEOPLE WEAR MASKS BUT THEY TOUCH EVERYTHING! THE LIFT BUTTONS, TABLES, DOORS! WHAT'S THE BLOODY USE?"

and then a commercial came on for Buoy the body wash...

Mum: Shut up you stupid woman!

Me: (gives worried stare)

Mum: i'm grouchy! I NEED A NAP!


haha. i love my mum.

I love how relaxed this song is! 

HAHAHAHAHA BLACK BARRY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Steph: Mum! why didn't i get your eyes? i want blue eyes!

Me: Yeah! we all got granddad's eyes instead

Mum: What? haha you don't have granddad's eyes...

Me: huh?! Then whose eyes do we have?

Dad: YOU HAVE MY EYES!

Me: haha no i don't!

Dad: YES YOU DO! COME AND LOOK

(takes a look)

Me: OOHH MY GOSH!!! DAD! SINCE WHEN WERE YOUR EYES BROWN?!

I spent my whole life thinking that i had my grandfather's eyes when actually, i have my dad's! It's weird that i've never noticed how brown my dad's eyes actually are.

Spent the day with Andrea and Salmah editing and all that. it was FUN! Ng Kwee Hoon is the cutest thing ever, i was doing my failed impression of Ms Swan and i asked her, "Have you ever heard of Ms swan?" and she went "heh... Swan... ^_^" SO CUTE!! HAHAHA i swear she is the most adorable adult i've ever met. WE FINISHED EDITING OUR PSA/TVC!! WHOOHOO! Should've seen how happy Salmah was, smiling from ear to ear! Can't wait to start our Co-Hosting this weekend. we gotta ace it!

i can't sleep! i am bored as hell which has caused me to start irritating duan yin, which reminds me, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I still have yet to complete my 50 surveys. GG Sam.

Went to this place called iCaramel with justin today. i have to say, it's pretty good and it smells DIVINE. watched "i love you man" and it was good except for the fact that i got a major headache and felt like throwing up half way through. i hate it when i randomly feel sick. And apparently the people sitting next to us were like THIS CLOSE to having sex. seriously, IT'S A COMEDY ABOUT THE FRIENDSHIP SHARED BETWEEN TWO GUYS. that is just a weird. get help.

Got back around 12.25 and dad says i'm grounded till the end of the year so translated in dad time, that's about a week or two. i hate how i get so nervous when i'm late. i will literally start shaking cause i hate how irresponsible i feel. i know it's lame but i hate disappointing my parents.

things i'm looking forward to this week:
1) having dinner with nessa!
2) hanging out with su!
3) shopping with kim!

i wish kylie would just move back already. i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait 

HAHA we didnt go to church today and my mum was quite cute about it

Mum: hello my heathen daughter!
me: haha hey mum
Mum: yes! it is your heathen mother! what do you want for lunch?

After having a pretty bad week, i feel renewed :)
I just want to have fun and let loose cause i haven't at all for a couple of weeks now. i haven't been feeling very Samantha-ish but i do now thanks to Kyls. what would i do without you? you always remind me that i'm a strong independent woman who is always in control! i love that feeling. To know that you can depend on yourself, that you can handle whatever shit that comes your way and that you don't take crap from anyone.
ah yes. i'm back ;)

p.s. Thong, i'm glad we're bros hahah

My phone might explode and kill me at anytime. 

Thanks dad.